Archive for January, 2011

effen cancer

I was talking recently with an elderly lady who lives on our street. She was saddened by the loss of one her friends and said “well I suppose I am at that age when everyone starts dying”….

she’s at THAT age? I very politely said to her, “well I’m not sure there is such an age when you start losing your friends” her reply was “what would you know?” It’s not like you would be losing friends at your age”. Well the thing is I am losing friends at my age. I am losing friends to bloody cancer. Every day I wake up I’m reminded that, I live with the enormous odds that I or one of my friends could be diagnosed at any time with breast or ovarian cancer. That’s one of the things you become aware of when your BRCA+.

Please don’t take people for granted, live everyday as if it were your last and most importantly tell the people close to you how much you love them, you never know when it might be to late.


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I can still see your smile

This post is dedicated in loving memory to my darling Aunty. Gaylyn Dawn Lang 17 July 1945-16 January 2005. Taken too soon

she sits upon my pillow, a precious gift from you, although you are gone now at least she still stays true. One socket holds a glass eye the other stares back blank. She watches me through sleepless which I have cancer to thank. It took with you my heart that day you were taken from this earth, and I miss you more than I ever did before. So I sleep alone now except for the angel on my bed, the one you said would protect me when you could not be there


They say it’s a beautiful journey from this world to the new, some day I’ll make that journey to the road that leads to you. And when I reach that garden where all is free from pain, I’ll put my arms around you and we’ll never part again.


The flowers I place upon your grave are placed with love and care, but few know the heartache when I turn to leave you there. May the winds of love blow softly and whisper for you to hear, how much I really miss you as it dawns another year.


I think about you often and talk about you too, I thought about you yesterday and the day before that too. I thought about the days when you were free from pain, before cancer took over and nothing has been the same. I think about your smile, your hugs so warm and true, the way you laughed the way you cried, the way you were just you. I think about that last day and wonder how I’ve gotten through. I think about how lucky I am to have been a part of you, my beautiful Aunt, my love for you will always be true, you’ll forever be in my heart, till always xx

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I need your support

I am taking part next month, in my first ever half marathon! yep 22km in 3hours (makes my eyes water just thinking about it!) I am asking for your support to help get me over the finish line and also to help FORCE http://www.facingourrisk.org. By sponsoring me, you are also giving to FORCE. All money raised goes DIRECTLY to the non profit organization that has been a great help in my life. Even if it is only $1 every little bit helps.

I thank you from the bottom of my heart xx


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